I’ve always referred to myself as adaptive. It was the highest sort of compliment that I liked to give myself. To me it meant that I could go with the flow, or I could make lemonade out of lemons. That I could be in a 3rd world country with just a backpack of my basics and feel comfortable. Or that I did my best to adhere to one of my favorite scriptures Philippians 4:10, “for I have learned to be content regardless of my circumstances.” Full scripture below.
So with all the massive changes that have happened the past few years I am revisiting that compliment I liked to pay myself. How am I really handling this? Especially in regard to that scripture? As I am in the middle of chaos in this transition, I know I need to meditate on those words as much as possible…because all of this truly has been scary.
Among many other things going on right now, closing down the studio to re-open it as basically an entirely different business- terrifying. More in the sense of it’s closing the doors of something totally awesome and successful all to move onto something totally new. But everything in me says it is necessary and the right decision. Once I had a vision for what the future could be there was no question about putting one foot in front of the other, checking off task after task, having hard conversations (especially with myself) and just doing what I had to do.
Even though this new endeavor has been one of the most challenging and time consuming of my life, I have peace with it. I have peace and I am scared. That may seem conflicting but I don’t think so. We are complicated creatures. I definitely understand that peace isn’t a destination I arrive at, set up permanent camp and sit back and relax. Peace is a moving thing and I fight to keep hold of it. It’s about believing wholeheartedly that God is in control and he loves me. The days where I feel it with every breath are amazing and joyful. And not always super common for me. I have to make choices to move myself into God’s peace and that takes effort.
The full scripture…
There’s no point in goals or creating art without hope and peace. Not even on my best days do I come close to completely embodying this scripture above. But on my best days I do remember it and hold it close. And that gives me the peace I need during trying times.
And I wanted to write this post because I know that some of you reading it have something you need to do that is downright terrifying. That will shake up your world and who you are. That will challenge you and push you so hard that you think you might snap at moments.
What vision do you have for yourself that brings you peace, calms your soul, but at the same time makes your heart race?
I dare you to make one big step today. Maybe it’s buying that new piece of equipment to get you started. Or putting a deposit down on that course. Or finalizing a budget and sticking to it. Or saying your dreams and goals out loud to someone you admire. Hiring a health coach. Or getting on your knees and praying. Maybe it’s booking a Rise session with me (to be released soon). The only one who knows what’s in your heart is you.
Make one big step. If I can do it you can too. Rise with me.